If you have been reading these scattered, rambling posts for a while then you know I’m a teacher. However, after 10 years, I have made the hard decision to resign from my dream job for the time being. Why? Good question.
Teaching is a job where you have to give all of yourself, no matter what, all day long. It’s mentally, emotionally, socially, and even sometimes physically, exhausting. I understand every job and career comes with its own stressors and hardships, but teaching is different. And don’t come back with, “at least you have summers off!” That’s pretty much the one major perk to this career.
For me personally, I didn’t feel I could give that 110% anymore. I felt tired and cranky all the time and was constantly finding something to complain about rather than reasons to rejoice. I wasn’t happy anymore and it was showing in my performance. My school, coworkers, admin, and kids were all amazing and they deserve someone who can give more than I can at this moment in my life. I am so sad and bummed about leaving all of the people from school; they truly were my second family. After much discussion with family and friends and much prayer, it became clear to me that I needed to take a break from teaching. This may be only a year or it may be forever. I hope to still work with kids in some capacity. Working with animals, outdoors, and/or traveling would also be wonderful.
So what’s next then? Another great question. Starting pretty soon I’ll have a job working at a barn and helping care for horses. I also tutor through a program at the local tennis organization and I’m tutoring through VIPKid.
My heart is heavy with this choice because I will miss it. Perhaps one day I’ll be led back into the classroom. For now I’m excited to see what the future holds for me, Hubs, and the doggos.
